New year's Eve

For me 2014 has been the worst year of my life, maybe it sounds dramatic but I really think this. The year started fine, but it was getting worse. 2014 took some parts of my life that I’ll never recover. It took a part of my heart on April, a part of my family on June and a party of my life on the past days.  However I don't want to sound dramatic as if I want to die or whatever. Although this year has been really bad, it has taught me a lot of lessons in life, it shows me how people that really want your happiness never would hurt you, that people who really appreciate you would do it for yourself and would accept you as you are. I could see how people come and gone in a blink of an eye and they could left a huge emptiness in your life, and the most important all of the things that have happened to me in this year have made me a little bit stronger.

Then, 2014 you're almost died, now it's time to enjoy the last pages of your life thinking in what you brought to our life’s in this time. For me now only exists a word HOPE, I have so much faith in this new year because, I have so many things in my life that i would like to change and do. Things like:

-Pass all my subjects this year and get high marks 

- Travel to Italy this summer to work as an au pair.

- Think less and be more confident.

-  Throw from my life those people that hurts me

-  Being more positive

- Eating healthier and being fit

And so much more...  I'm sure that this year it's going to be great, because I deserve it and I need it.

In the last year of the day, people make a balance of good and bad times, you think in all you don't want in your life and you hope you could change all of this. Is a day for think, for made new purposes and for celebrate, for all good that life have brought you this year and hope for this year being such a great year.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

One problem/ solution paragraph: Eating disorders.

Depression, anxiety, loneliness, madness, illness, DEATHS. These words describe some of the problems that eating disorders cause. Is fault of the sufferers or really the fault falls into our society? Eating disorders are increasing nowadays, these types of illnesses affect directly to young people who dream being like top models that appears in magazines. I blame society for this; they sell us an image that isn't even close to reality. Most of the girls have ever thought ' I want to be like this girl that appears in the cover of this famous magazine’, but what people should know is there's a lot of Photoshop behind this. This society have inculcated that having a XS size is right and the people that haven't it are fat. This just ends in a big spiral of problems that makes it bigger every day. A ' fat' girl probably will be bullied in school this lead into three steps: Depression, obsession, illness. All of this could disappear if we inculcate people that are not right having a XS size. Because being starving and unhealthy is not a way of life, is not beautiful at all.

This problem could end in us; it's in our hands raise awareness about this problem. In my opinion if we should stop showing the image of a really skinny girl as beautiful this could solve. If this would happen a girl wouldn’t feel bad if she doesn’t look like a model. The big solution to this problem is easy. We should stop talking about diets, talking about losing weight and we must be start talking about that for being beautiful is important being healthy and fit. I blame all of the beauty industry from fashion companies making ever smaller sizes to magazines and commercial spots always changing all with Photoshop and never showing us reality. Is time of wake up and see reality by ourselves. Beautiful is not in being thin. Is in ourselves, because being thin doesn't make you happier and even more beautiful. If you don't start loving yourself and working in your confidence all won't worth nothing. So why don't stop to want look like a Barbie doll instead of work in ourselves, in being healthy, happy and confidence.

I don't know what to feel.

From Thursday to now i have been feeling so sad, confused, and lonely at the same time. When i think in why i feel this way, i just can't get the answer. I feel lonely when I’m with people and when I’m alone all i can hear is the sound of my thoughts. I wake up feeling the same way as when i went to sleep. I try to smile, to find a way of feeling better but i can't, i feel weak, i feel that i can't do anything. I know that this probably is dramatic but are just my feelings. So, i wake up the following day thinking that day could be better, but all just stay the same. I don't want to go out with my friends, i don't want to talk with my family, I’m always angry, i don't want to do anything. All that i want to do is stay in my bedroom listening music. The most sad in this is that i can't find a reason for this, is just that i feel empty is like i just have the half of me. It's a weird feeling. I just want to wake up feeling great with myself, but these days have been the worst. I don't know, maybe tomorrow, i would wake up and feeling better, i really hope it.

Fanatism: Do whatever you like.( Primera práctica evaluable).

Being a fan, fanatism, fangirling, all of this structures mean the same; for me a feeling, for others a no sense. I started being a fan of two singers and actresses seven years ago and i still love them like the first day. Some people say to me that this is something inmature, but they don't know anything about this amazing feeling. This feelingf for me is one of the best in life, the illusion when they release new single, when they dedicate beautiful words to their fans, when you go to see them in concert is a type of illusion that i want to transmit my children one day. The last year one of my dreams came true, i went too see one of them in concert, was the best experience of my life. Not only for seeing her in concert also because i could met amazing people who were very similar to me. The true in this is that doesn't matter what people say, if make you happy just do it. They say, it's time to mature, but i disagree it's time to make all our dreams come true. I love being a fan and i hope this feeling could last forever.

My little angel.

When i think about love his picture comes to my mind. All i can hear is the sound of his laughter; all i can see is the color of his eyes, and all I can feel is a sad feeling of yearning. 586, 4 km is what separate me from him; I’m going to talk about a sad but beautiful story of how love can transfer the distance.

Almost two years ago my little angel was born, he was called Marc. I never had known that i could love someone so little like I do until the day he was born and illuminated my life just with a smile.The sad in this story is that they live in Barcelona, they have their life there and i have mine here. I see them very occasionally and hurt me knowing that I’m not seeing him growing up. This is something that caused me pain for a long time until i realized that was something that i could change.My little has now almost two years and he is the most beautiful kid that I have ever seen in all my entire life. I love him even more than me because is a pure soul that haven't any bad intention, i love him because even having a bad day entering in Facebook and seeing a photo of him makes my day better, like today i was really sick with fever when he comes into my room and wake me up for surprise, i have to say that today is one of the best days in a long time. For the happiness that he brings to my life when i finished my career I’m going to live in Barcelona for a long time, it's one of my biggest goals. Finally i have to say that even sometimes gets hard, love runs out. I wouldn't change anything of my life since he is in, because seeing him happy always will be a reason to keep fighting in life.

Happiness is in the smallest things.

I'm the clear example of happiness with the smaller things. I'm going to talk about things that make me happy. Get up every morning and be grateful for a new sunrise and see my cat sleepy in the end of my bed so peaceful. See the smile of my little nephew and the bright in his eyes.Also make me so happy the first song of the day which make that you start with all of the energy of the world. The sound of the birds and how the sunbeams poke out my window. Know that I’m alive and that i can feel a lot of emotions. Also make me happy listen to Ed Sheeran every night until i fall asleep. The day of my birthday is my favorite day of the year, i love it. I adore the sound of the rain and the smell that lets after. The inspiring songs that get into your soul are one of the most beautiful things in life. and surprises always make me feel exited, even if they're not for me. Dream, I’m always dreaming and i imagine me travelling all around the world reaching all of my dreams.  The beautiful moment when you look someone into the eyes and you reflect in them. When my mums makes my favorite food and I see my favorite TV show on Tuesday. The sensation of get reunited with old friends and make new ones. Sing make my life, i couldn't live without sing is my passion in life, is what always make me feel better. The sound of the waves and the smell of the sea make me feel free and I think that there's nothing better than see people i love happy, is so inspiring. I know that I’m strong and that I’m getting better every day of my life. In life beautiful things are just the most simple and these things are just a few of all, because for me life wouldn't be anything without the little moments that keeps in our hearts.

Time

Time run so fast although we don't realize of it, i can look backward and see how the last year has pass flying. For this i have get to the conclusion that i need to experiment all of the emotions that life give me even if is pain or sadness because when the time pass i could say that i have lived instead say that passed my days waiting for the time to run. After all this time i have understood  that there's some things that i cannot change and i must be patience to let it be and while change those i can, because now is all we have.

Incredible.

It's incredible how the time just let see the reality, tearing the true between so many lies. Even more incredible is how words, memories and people are erased of your life in the blink of an eye. It's difficult to understand that the reasons of yesterday are the uncertainty of today and the sorrow of tomorrow. Days, hours, minutes and seconds pass as the feelings do that are hidden in layers of aversion, resentment and even hate. Incredible, as incredible as that who someday was someone important turned in what you don't know, in what you don't ever get to know.

"All of the stars".

If all of the nights i could see the stars as i see them today i think all would be easier. Today the sky is clear, i can feel the sea breeze under my skin and tears roll down my face, uncertain tears, uncertain as the feeling that my heart keeps. A confuse heart that don't know what is feeling, is in a deep  whirlwind and cannot get the way of scape of it.  This night i feel all of the weight of the world on my shoulders, i feel overwhelmed with it, i feel how it tear me down until being a tiny point that paint the lines of the universe. Finally take a breath and look up the sky thinking in which one of these stars will be my destiny.

"The heart wants what it wants"

"Heart always wins out over the mind. The heart, although reckless and suicidal and a masochist all on its own, always gets its way”. When i think of you a lot of feelings come to me, good and bad feelings at the same time. I feel sad for all that I never could tell you, for all of the places we had never gone, for all of the days where i will never see your smile. Because never won't be a you and me anymore, us, together, because summer came out and takes all with it, because sun will never shine in our hearts like it used to do it. You, you were everything to me, my light in the dark, my umbrella in the rain, my partner in hard times, i  know that I’m young and there are lot of people  outside, but there's no one like you.

In life, we are going to meet a lot of persons but will be a person that will change your whole world, a person who always make you better, and a person who make you fly without fears. And all of this is what you are for me, you were like a hurricane in my life, you came fast and after you nothing had been the same. Because, how shine the sun without light? What is the night sky without stars? And who i am without you?

Although not having you hurts I’m grateful because you have made me a better person. Because you have made me confident, you have made me positive, you have helped me to realize the person that i am and the most important you have made life different for me. Maybe our ways never cross again; maybe would never be more love songs for you and me, more sunrises, more moments, maybe our story ended that day of April, or maybe no.

However, if our ways cross again or not, I’ll always have a smile and a big hug for you.For being my beautiful love, my best friend and made one of the best memories that I will ever have.For all, for you, for me, for our song that an ordinary day sounds on the radio and make me think of you, and make you think of me.

For destiny and love, because heart always get his right way.

Comparing paragraph: Living in a small town / living in a big city.

The big difference of living in a small town or in a big city is the rhythm of life.

In a big city people wake up early with the sound of cars whistling, in a small town nothing wake you up unless the cackle of the cock do it.

Another big difference between both are people, in a big city there are so many people in a small town there are not many people.

Also in contrast of a noisy big city, there's a quiet small town. In a small town you can see nature, for example i live in a small town and i had woken some times and i had seen goats in front of my house.

Here you can see so many fields and animals different from the city when you can't see nothing of it.

In conclusion a big city and a small town have so many differences but in my opinion the most important is the rythm that people have in their lifes. In the town people are peaceful, more relaxing in contrast to the city where  people are frantic, always in motion.

An opinion paragraph: Fashion is what you make.

Fashion: 1. The prevailing style or custom, as in dress or behavior: out of fashion. 2. Something, such as a garment, that is in the current mode: a swimsuit that is the latest fashion.  3. The style characteristic of the social elite: a man of fashion.                                                  

 But in my opinion this is completely wrong, i think that fashion is what you make of it.

Everyday when i go out i see so many types of styles, people who don't matter mixing colors, people with caps when there's no sun, others with clothes that don't be trendy and so much more.

For this reason a think that fashion don't need to be a stric term for what's trendy.

I think that we're all free for wearing whatever we like, in my case i like so much dark hats and in my town people stare looking weird at you if you wear one because it's something that nobody wear there.

But i don't care what people think of me and in my opinion it's something that all should do.

For concluding  i have to say that for me fashion is a word that mean have liberty on wearing whatever you want.

Describing a character.

Some years ago in my years of teenager used to be a TV character who i really liked.
Her name was Alex Russo a normal teenager for most of the people but a secret wizard too.
This character was starring for the beautiful actress and singer Selena Gómez.
Describing Alex in the outside it's easy, she was so beautiful, has a long dark hair and dark eyes too.
Was tall and thin and with a beautiful smile, probaly who i like the most from phsically talking was her style.
She was always wearing daring outfits and i always wanted to wear like her.
But being honest the aspect that i liked the most from her was her personality.
She was always fearless, taking adventures and having fun. " People who mature too fast is usually boring this is because i enjoy every second of my life" she used to said. I think that the best of her was how she was always mistaken but in the end se could get the way to fix it.
Some years ago i liked Alex because she taught me to think less and dream more.

My favourite place in the world.

For me a favourite place for someone must be a place where you go everytime you're feeling sad o just a place where you go for being alone with your thoughts and feelings.

Benidorm, such a beautiful place better known for parties, "guiris" and beaches but it's not just this for me it's something more special.
There's a place  who always make me feel like one grain in the sand, always make me think in all of the beautiful in life, is a place where i feel in peace, completely free.

This place is the gazer of benidorm, from there you can see all the city and the most beautiful, the sea.
Everytime i feel too sad and i think that i need a scape i go there and the experience is amazing.
Is my favourite place in the world because make me understand why i love life, is a place who always remind me who i am and who i wanna be.  If you go there, stop in the middle and just close your eyes,you'll can feel all of this peace with the sound of the waves, the smell of the sea and the sea breeze.
I can't describe what mean this place to me with words because it's something that i feel when i'm there.
I invite everyone to go there and discover what feelings bring in you.
For me is inspiring, lovely, peaceful and in final place but not least important a place who keep a piece of my heart.

P.S:  I adjunt some pics of the place, i was there the last summer with my friends.

I have to let you go.

Dear sister, best friend and person that i used to know, i love you more than you will ever know.

I feel completely sad when i think of all of our memories, there's so much more and i will never forget them.

I feel the emptiness of knowing that a part of my heart and soul is going with you, but you have changed and now nothing is the same.

Where are the person that i used to know?  There's nothing left of her in you.

I remember how we used to spent the days just laughing, going everywhere, having fun and just being the friends we were.

All of the love  i feel for you will never compare with other but your presence in my life is hurting me everyday more and more.

I know that i have to think in me and my happiness and for this i have to let you go.

This is breaking my heart because i love you and i don't want this but i have spent so many time dedicating me to others without think in my life and my happiness so now is the time.

I promise you that i will never forget you because you will be in my heart forever.

The years that i spent with you were the best of my life, you were so much more than a friend and so much more than a sister.

But you never listen to me, you never think in me and this is hurting me so...

Now it's time to look foward and share my life with persons that make my life happier and positive.
People who accept me like i am.

In spite of all i love you and i forgive you everything, i will always remember you and love you.

With all my heart and soul.
Your dear friend.

PS: Here i adjunct the link of my favourite song of this group ( Kodaline) this song open my eyes so much.
Because i have always try to see myself thorough the eyes of someone else.

How a story can change your mind.

Two weeks ago I was spending time with a person who always make that the place doesn't matter. We were walking through a mall, seeing shops and we decided to enter in a Fnac, we were looking all the music, first the music that i like and then yours until we walked in to the book section where i  always get  lost drunk( i mean a synonym like " embriagada" in spanish) by the essence that paper books let in me, fill my soul.
I examined all of the shelves looking some titles, when suddlenly my eyes focused in one book specially. "Nobody like you" was his title in spanish although his original title is " The edge of never" title that I personally think that is better than the other one that in my opinion only make you think that is another romantic story for teens.

Even so, this book caught my attention so i decided that i will give it an oportunity. Unfortunately i have a horrible memory for some things and when i returned home i don't remember the title, i passed some days searching it until finally found it.

I have to say that so many times we judge all just for his cover and maybe this can lead us to a complete error. The edge of never has make me fall in love, I feel completely gratefull for this book come to my life an ordinary day because it has changed my way to think in so many aspects, it teaches me a lot.

The books told how a young girl of 20 years old end finding herself, but for finally get the happiness and the life she always has wanted, she has to be brave and leave her fears behind.

It's incredible how a book of 500 pages of paper can let us enter in an adventure without moving of the sitting room of our homes.
For this reason i love reading so much and always will be one of the big passions of my life, like since i was a little girl.

Definitely this book is a tribute to life, liberty and love. Speak of how to be free just being ourself and saying what we think without fear, because there's just one life and it's our life.

For concluding i have to say that i have loved this book so i finished it today and i'm already reading the second part " The edge of always" who is not published in spanish yet, so i have to read it in english.
Finally must recommend it for those who loves romantic novels althought i have to say that this novel is much more than this.
Long live to the books that makes us dream and fly feeling free.

"The Otherside". ( Free writing).

Can you see people? Who they really are or just what they seem?
There are so many types of people in the world, you can see it everyday on the streets.
We qualify people creating a number of labels. You can say " This girl is so fat or maybe this girl is so ugly"
But in the end, do you know what you're saying?
Well, you're judging a person, you don't know how is this person inside because you only can see the outside. I think that if you only stand one second to appreciate the smalls things of this world, everything will change for you, you can see life from the otherside, knowing the content of a book before to judge the cover.
Usually some people acts badly because life it's not always easy but we can realize of this and learn of our mistakes. You don't know what you'll be in twenty years but you know the things you can do and change now, you know what you want and the most important you know who you are.