New year's Eve

For me 2014 has been the worst year of my life, maybe it sounds dramatic but I really think this. The year started fine, but it was getting worse. 2014 took some parts of my life that I’ll never recover. It took a part of my heart on April, a part of my family on June and a party of my life on the past days.  However I don't want to sound dramatic as if I want to die or whatever. Although this year has been really bad, it has taught me a lot of lessons in life, it shows me how people that really want your happiness never would hurt you, that people who really appreciate you would do it for yourself and would accept you as you are. I could see how people come and gone in a blink of an eye and they could left a huge emptiness in your life, and the most important all of the things that have happened to me in this year have made me a little bit stronger.

Then, 2014 you're almost died, now it's time to enjoy the last pages of your life thinking in what you brought to our life’s in this time. For me now only exists a word HOPE, I have so much faith in this new year because, I have so many things in my life that i would like to change and do. Things like:

-Pass all my subjects this year and get high marks 

- Travel to Italy this summer to work as an au pair.

- Think less and be more confident.

-  Throw from my life those people that hurts me

-  Being more positive

- Eating healthier and being fit

And so much more...  I'm sure that this year it's going to be great, because I deserve it and I need it.

In the last year of the day, people make a balance of good and bad times, you think in all you don't want in your life and you hope you could change all of this. Is a day for think, for made new purposes and for celebrate, for all good that life have brought you this year and hope for this year being such a great year.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

One problem/ solution paragraph: Eating disorders.

Depression, anxiety, loneliness, madness, illness, DEATHS. These words describe some of the problems that eating disorders cause. Is fault of the sufferers or really the fault falls into our society? Eating disorders are increasing nowadays, these types of illnesses affect directly to young people who dream being like top models that appears in magazines. I blame society for this; they sell us an image that isn't even close to reality. Most of the girls have ever thought ' I want to be like this girl that appears in the cover of this famous magazine’, but what people should know is there's a lot of Photoshop behind this. This society have inculcated that having a XS size is right and the people that haven't it are fat. This just ends in a big spiral of problems that makes it bigger every day. A ' fat' girl probably will be bullied in school this lead into three steps: Depression, obsession, illness. All of this could disappear if we inculcate people that are not right having a XS size. Because being starving and unhealthy is not a way of life, is not beautiful at all.

This problem could end in us; it's in our hands raise awareness about this problem. In my opinion if we should stop showing the image of a really skinny girl as beautiful this could solve. If this would happen a girl wouldn’t feel bad if she doesn’t look like a model. The big solution to this problem is easy. We should stop talking about diets, talking about losing weight and we must be start talking about that for being beautiful is important being healthy and fit. I blame all of the beauty industry from fashion companies making ever smaller sizes to magazines and commercial spots always changing all with Photoshop and never showing us reality. Is time of wake up and see reality by ourselves. Beautiful is not in being thin. Is in ourselves, because being thin doesn't make you happier and even more beautiful. If you don't start loving yourself and working in your confidence all won't worth nothing. So why don't stop to want look like a Barbie doll instead of work in ourselves, in being healthy, happy and confidence.

I don't know what to feel.

From Thursday to now i have been feeling so sad, confused, and lonely at the same time. When i think in why i feel this way, i just can't get the answer. I feel lonely when I’m with people and when I’m alone all i can hear is the sound of my thoughts. I wake up feeling the same way as when i went to sleep. I try to smile, to find a way of feeling better but i can't, i feel weak, i feel that i can't do anything. I know that this probably is dramatic but are just my feelings. So, i wake up the following day thinking that day could be better, but all just stay the same. I don't want to go out with my friends, i don't want to talk with my family, I’m always angry, i don't want to do anything. All that i want to do is stay in my bedroom listening music. The most sad in this is that i can't find a reason for this, is just that i feel empty is like i just have the half of me. It's a weird feeling. I just want to wake up feeling great with myself, but these days have been the worst. I don't know, maybe tomorrow, i would wake up and feeling better, i really hope it.

Fanatism: Do whatever you like.( Primera práctica evaluable).

Being a fan, fanatism, fangirling, all of this structures mean the same; for me a feeling, for others a no sense. I started being a fan of two singers and actresses seven years ago and i still love them like the first day. Some people say to me that this is something inmature, but they don't know anything about this amazing feeling. This feelingf for me is one of the best in life, the illusion when they release new single, when they dedicate beautiful words to their fans, when you go to see them in concert is a type of illusion that i want to transmit my children one day. The last year one of my dreams came true, i went too see one of them in concert, was the best experience of my life. Not only for seeing her in concert also because i could met amazing people who were very similar to me. The true in this is that doesn't matter what people say, if make you happy just do it. They say, it's time to mature, but i disagree it's time to make all our dreams come true. I love being a fan and i hope this feeling could last forever.

My little angel.

When i think about love his picture comes to my mind. All i can hear is the sound of his laughter; all i can see is the color of his eyes, and all I can feel is a sad feeling of yearning. 586, 4 km is what separate me from him; I’m going to talk about a sad but beautiful story of how love can transfer the distance.

Almost two years ago my little angel was born, he was called Marc. I never had known that i could love someone so little like I do until the day he was born and illuminated my life just with a smile.The sad in this story is that they live in Barcelona, they have their life there and i have mine here. I see them very occasionally and hurt me knowing that I’m not seeing him growing up. This is something that caused me pain for a long time until i realized that was something that i could change.My little has now almost two years and he is the most beautiful kid that I have ever seen in all my entire life. I love him even more than me because is a pure soul that haven't any bad intention, i love him because even having a bad day entering in Facebook and seeing a photo of him makes my day better, like today i was really sick with fever when he comes into my room and wake me up for surprise, i have to say that today is one of the best days in a long time. For the happiness that he brings to my life when i finished my career I’m going to live in Barcelona for a long time, it's one of my biggest goals. Finally i have to say that even sometimes gets hard, love runs out. I wouldn't change anything of my life since he is in, because seeing him happy always will be a reason to keep fighting in life.

Happiness is in the smallest things.

I'm the clear example of happiness with the smaller things. I'm going to talk about things that make me happy. Get up every morning and be grateful for a new sunrise and see my cat sleepy in the end of my bed so peaceful. See the smile of my little nephew and the bright in his eyes.Also make me so happy the first song of the day which make that you start with all of the energy of the world. The sound of the birds and how the sunbeams poke out my window. Know that I’m alive and that i can feel a lot of emotions. Also make me happy listen to Ed Sheeran every night until i fall asleep. The day of my birthday is my favorite day of the year, i love it. I adore the sound of the rain and the smell that lets after. The inspiring songs that get into your soul are one of the most beautiful things in life. and surprises always make me feel exited, even if they're not for me. Dream, I’m always dreaming and i imagine me travelling all around the world reaching all of my dreams.  The beautiful moment when you look someone into the eyes and you reflect in them. When my mums makes my favorite food and I see my favorite TV show on Tuesday. The sensation of get reunited with old friends and make new ones. Sing make my life, i couldn't live without sing is my passion in life, is what always make me feel better. The sound of the waves and the smell of the sea make me feel free and I think that there's nothing better than see people i love happy, is so inspiring. I know that I’m strong and that I’m getting better every day of my life. In life beautiful things are just the most simple and these things are just a few of all, because for me life wouldn't be anything without the little moments that keeps in our hearts.

Time

Time run so fast although we don't realize of it, i can look backward and see how the last year has pass flying. For this i have get to the conclusion that i need to experiment all of the emotions that life give me even if is pain or sadness because when the time pass i could say that i have lived instead say that passed my days waiting for the time to run. After all this time i have understood  that there's some things that i cannot change and i must be patience to let it be and while change those i can, because now is all we have.